I have spent a lot of my life hiding my light under a bushel as it were. I am a Christian. I am a tarot card reader. I am a medium. I am a mother. I am a grandmother. I am a dogmom. I am a lawyer. I bet one or two of those made you pause.
I have always read tarot cards. The first time was in 8th grade. My mother’s great aunt read the cards.
I have always been a medium. The first time I had a truly psychic experience was when I was in elementary school. My uncle (Dad’s brother) was a medium. Uncle Spook (yes, that was his nickname) said he couldn’t even take a shower without being bothered by the dead.
I have also been a Spirit (God)-Believer since before I can remember. I mean, there was never any doubt. I just knew. I just talked to Spirit. Spirit was always present. I can feel Spirit. I can feel the presence of Spirit. I can feel the love of Spirit.
Jesus was a little harder. Only because so many bad things have been done in his name and even today, this misuse of his name is still being continued. I personally believe this is what the Ten Commandments meant by “thou shall not take the Lord’s name in vain.” I use to (halfway) joke that Jesus was sitting up in heaven and going “oy vey! What are they doing in my name?!” I still believe that. I believe Jesus came here to show us love, compassion, etc.
I had been known to say that Jesus was the biggest Public Relations (PR) scam in history. And then, I had my own Road to Damascus moment. (In case you don’t know, Paul had a vision of Christ on the Road to Damascus and went from persecuting Christians to being a Christian, Acts 9).
So what was my moment/ Well, let’s just say Spirit does not usually smack me like Paul was smacked. My clear moments are equally clear, just not as dramatic. (Darn! Don’t I deserve a miracle or two?)
My favorite apostle of all time is Peter. Big, blustery Peter. He was a fisherman. Do you know any fisherman? Well, me either. Just think oil field worker or construction worker and I think you’ve got the type of guy we are talking about. Muscled, talks too much, is crass, crude, etc. Oh, and never dis Peter to me. I love this man.
Then there was John. John was most likely Jesus’s cousin, the son of Elizabeth. Not 100% sure, but that’s the consensus of Biblical scholars.
Then there was Judas. I want to say boo, hiss, whenever I say the name. In Jewish homes, during Purim, the name of Haman is booed and hissed. Judas betrayed Jesus. But I have begun to wonder if maybe he didn’t just get the short stick, because it needed to be done. That’s another question I have when I get up to the spirit world (heaven).
So let’s look at the Garden of Gethsemane. Jesus goes there with the disciples to pray. Judas betrays Jesus. Judas commits suicide. Peter follows behind at a safe distance. John follows along, not necessarily at such a safe distance, because his daddy is the high priest and he’s probably safe.
During the night, Peter denies knowing Jesus three times. Peter feels really bad about this. But wait. Where are the rest of the apostles? They are chicken. Bock, bock, bock and have run to hide. So for 2000+ years we have been dissing Peter, when it’s the other nine that really need to be dissed. Wait, that’s my problem with a lot of the church today. They are too busy looking at me (Peter) than to look at themselves (9 other apostles). Wait, that’s a different blog.
But Peter was there. That’s why Jesus said he’d build his church upon Peter. Because Peter at least had the balls (yes, I said balls) to follow behind instead of running and hiding. Peter had the balls to show up. I hope I’ll always show up, I’ll never back down.
But it gets better. 50 days later, on Pentecost, Peter stands up and preaches a sermon to 5000+ people. He goes from being chicken (bock, bock, bock) to being willing to preach and risk his life. Then, down the road, he is sentenced to be crucified like Jesus and asks to be crucified upside down, because he said he didn’t deserve to be crucified like Jesus (or so the legend goes).
Here’s where I realized Jesus couldn’t be a PR scam. How did a blustery, crude, uneducated fisherman go from being chicken-ish man to being willing to risk his life? I mean, following behind at a safe distance had a slight risk, but this! Also, how did someone like Peter go from being a crude fisherman to being able to command an audience of that size? Hmm. And remember, these audiences are use to watching death and mayhem. They definitely needed to be entertained. That’s where I got stumped. Because it isn’t as easy as all that. And then I realized. There had to be a risen Jesus. That’s the only thing that makes sense. I mean, all the rest of the apostles died horrific deaths (except John) so maybe there is something to this risen Jesus thing.
Okay, so does that mean Christianity is perfect. Hell to the no. No, no, no! I’m not even sure that Jesus was perfect. That may be one of the fallacies that we bought into during the last 2000 years. I don’t know. And guess what? I don’t care.
Just because Jesus lived, died and rose again does not negate the truths that Buddha taught. It does not negate tarot card readings as truthful tools for our good. It does not negate mediumship. That’s what the church did and does. Not Jesus. In not one place in the Bible do I hear him talking against other beliefs. Right? Right! So wait, if Jesus didn’t bash Buddha, why should I? If Jesus didn’t bash tarot, mediumship, crystal ball reading, etc. why do Christians? Well, that could be the biggest PR scam ever. A way for men in robes to control women and the poor and get money for themselves. But no, not Peter, or James and John, they saw Jesus raised from the dead.
We all know that the Bible as we know it wasn’t put together in a book until almost 200 years later. I looked it up, and they say that the first canon was 120 A.D., but some books weren’t included until roughly 400 A.D. There are people who believe that there are other books that should be included. Judaism has different Old Testament books, as does the Catholic Church. So, the Bible may or may not be all that accurate in what people said. I mean, it’s not like Matthew copyrighted the book of Matthew and had a say in what it said after his death. It’s not like there was a print shop down the road from the Upper Room. No, these books were hand-copied throughout the ages.
One of the things I find interesting about the Bible is that it seems like the Church allowed a few things to stay in the Bible, so that if a person is a seeker, they can begin to find esoteric knowledge there, to begin to go down the road to seeking Spirit. Yes, I just said that. Not everyone who goes to church seeks Spirit. Or maybe Spirit left it in so that it was always there for those of us who wanted more knowledge. I don’t know. But I do know I am tired of hiding my candle.
So 2020 (which for me is an “11” in numerology) is my year to shine. This is what I found on 11’s: “The number 11 is a Master Number which means that it resonates at an extremely high vibration. If the number 1 is about leadership, optimism, positivity, and initiative, Master Number 11 multiplies these attributes to a higher power. Master Number 11 is associated with spiritual illumination and our ‘inner teacher’.”
Namaste y’all. I’m excited to greet 2020.