Many of you know that Iris was my foster puppy. She was so sweet, so ethereal, so brave. . . I actually had considered keeping her. I loved her a lot. Yesterday I took her along with her Mom, her brother and her sister to the veterinarian’s office to leave overnight to be spayed today. The surgery went fine, but for some reason she never woke up. They did an autopsy which only raised more questions with no answers.
So obviously I have been crying. I think of her sweet puppyness and puppy kisses and I miss her. The vet was kind and let me go and hold her and say good-bye. I’ll never touch her little puppy fur or get her sweet baby kisses.
But then it made me think. I started wishing I had spent more time with her and all of the dogs instead of playing stupid video games or games on my phone. How much time have I wasted? In fact, how much time have I wasted doing mindless things instead of doing the things that count?
Then someone posted the picture above on Facebook. Yes, I have regrets. I regret the time I wasted and didn’t spend holding her and loving her. Yes, everything happens for a reason. One of the reasons I believe it happened was to show me how I should be spending my time – building memories and relationships and learning. Not wasting a second.
Yes, I am sad and hurt. Yes, I will grieve. But if you don’t love, you don’t hurt. Life is too short not to love.